write letters

 it would have been great to start writing letters.i used to write letters while studying in school and later at college.it was fantastic. almost all were in my native tongue malayalam . nowadays the main hinderance to mail sending is email facebook gmail whatsapp and hoards of other communication facilities including apps .

how to even send stories to magazines through post.there is no way of knowing our articles or stories or anything is delivered right to where it is to be received,but it is somehow a relief when through other medias we can be sure that the recipients at least saw the matter.

write them i mean the stories that come to your mind.i can do it but its not perfect as it is written.whether it is in malayalam or english the first person style comes to the writes.

it is imperative to my way of writing that i write more often.

 

my writing failures

 I take the time to write.why.because i have alreadyforgotten what i was about to write.lots of useful and informative and countless thoughts has gone through the fragments of forgetment because i would have lost sight of what i intended to write.

many a time i would be taking up the pen to write down the savoured and tested inmind glorified or unglorified bits and pieces but the time spent on finding a pen running around for other chores in between and sitting down with a piece of paper costs me a lot.

this writing is also a dreadful conclusion to such an aftermath. why put such a thoughtful piece in facebook twitter or insta or any other social platform my mind raged.after a long period of time i  am using my blog.my blog is full of unfinished lines or paragraphs.by the time i pulled up my sons laptop,asked his permission to take it and pulling a chair in front of my husbands desk clearing all the clutter on it placing the laptop in it connecting it to net well..after all the paraphernalia  i opened the laptop checked into the google site from it and took the google blog page staring at the long forgotten semi finished unfinished unwritten words in it,,when i finally got down to write the brilliant idea in my head.. poof,,nothing.nothing comes to my mind for a whole five minute.

it will take long i know but eventually fragments of the lost lines are slowly comimg back.i will write it down as a seperate idea in quite another blog.how many ideas will end up halfbaked in my diaries and notebooks and blogs and fb and insta and whatsapp status just could not fathom now.

i am not one for editing.i am not one who rereads also.even if i were to take time to edit rewrite make the sentences semm perfect ,if i am to do anything to what i write it will definitely block my thoughts.some may call me lazy and many have called me lazy but better be called lazy than stop putting down words randomly.

it the edits and afterwork will put me off writing another blog or fb or whatnot and thereby stop me from writing long paragraphs write long sentences and write down anything that comes to my mind i will not edit,editing is my enemy.

no capitals no  beautifying nothing.just writing.i am an unkempt person.so shall my writing me.i bathe everyday i change clothes more than two times a day that is to be found in my writing.yes.but dont expect me to be well groomed.makeup and picture perfect is not me .similar to my writing,my ideas are right but not my writing  methods.

Suffer much?

 It was an elaborate attempt on my part .Have a long suffered face? Heard since eternity that you should smile once on a while? Well that is something worthy of your Life getting back on track.isn't it. Finally I decided to try it. I smiled at my mother in law who has just recently been part of my home after father in law's death.I had thought it would be a crime to smile at her or laugh loudly at her presence. Eventually came into senses that she or her son would think it is because I don't like her moving in with us. I had to be myself. That is , laugh loud at videos of pet dogs cats or any mind relieving activity I usually indulge myself in. But I found out that these are deliberately done. Not normally coming out. So I had to rethink my priority.It is me but with an effective twist. Smile and my body consiously does something to my mind and eventually to my body that is totally relaxing.Two days into the experiment I am already feeling the after effects. What is with you question started with my spouse finding it strange I am off my grumpy demeanour.Actually I feel calmer and relaxed. 

Dreams

I have to fill the page with my dreams. But I need time as it  is far too many.things are getting a too little fast as in life and everything,

so far so good

                    There are cheap rates to be followed in online purchases .but I often follow the grand route of expensiveness.I don't know why but my ammi says it has to do with the grand money earner mental built up.may be it is true.maybe it is not.it is simply a thing I enjoy.the money tinkling in bank account is mine.whole lot of a world of watches slippers shirts trousers socks under wears and every nicks and knacks.majority of people in the world think it waste of money but is it truly so.women and their purchases are an acceptable thing in a society like ours but the moment men step in and lo and behold the trash talk begins.why so.most of my friends keep themselves back from online buys just because their wives do not approve or their sisters do not or all the more their mother does not like the fact that instead of giving them an open accessibility to them their son or Hus or bro is using the card for their own purpose. ha.I chose to show them my example of spending my money on myself or my own valid reasons.why not.